hi, i also think you should take father hill's advice.
remember that the demons do not want us to get close to God, so will try to magnify any problems we have and make them excessive. don't take them too seriously, pray 'Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, a sinner', and ignore their taunts as you would ignore the fury of a 2 year old stamping his feet.
i remember reading that you are busy at work.
would it be possible to start working less hours?
it may mean you have to accept a low salary and not get promotion, but i think it would be good for your soul.
i also work too many hours, but am coming to the end of one contract and i plan to make sure my next contract is less hours and less pay. it means people will respect me less, but that will be good for me as i am often tempted to be proud.
i also have some problems socially, again, most people would never guess (feel free to discuss privately if you wish).
but sometimes i have to be honest about my problems, eg. 'i really don't think i should be the one to talk to him, i'll say something inappropriate, did you consider asking that other person to do it?'
i know it's good sometimes to try to hide your problems, because people might freak out and not know what to do. but sometimes you need to be honest with people. it is scary, but being a little bit more open will stop you being tempted to be proud, and also shows the other person that you are asking them for help.
Christian family life isn't just about helping people, it's about asking for help, too, so that the other people can receive a blessing from God for helping you.
also, i remember the waiting period, i was tempted to jealousy of the people who were more fully involved.
it is important to resist this temptation and to pray for them instead.
God has wonderful plans for all of us, and none of us should wish to walk another person's path. their trials may be too difficult for us, just as ours may be too difficult for them.
God knows what He is doing as He passes out the blessings and the trials, so that we can all grow towards perfection and eventual unity with Him.
may God guide you dear sis