i ve prayed hard to God, but he abadonded me or either doesn't exist and it's just stories.
i ve been praying for something, so hard , i tried to be good and go to church and help others, while others claimed to be atheist and were easily given what i prayed for so long. fuck this life. there is nothing for me. i tried to work so hard and do everything in my power , other people in the same school were bullying me, made me feel bad, even the teachers and i be been working on that for years working hard, and they tried to put me down. ripped me off , helped everyoen get a job, they took my money and my dreams are gone. they ripped me off on my marks, i complained to the school, but they supported them... before getting in that school i was praying hard for a job but it didnt come and a monk advised me to do some better qualifications. before the exams i studied hard, i knew everything , i even went to a monastery and prayed to pass the exams, and get a job, but God was not there. people have been wishing me bad all the time, but i helped people as much as i could, although i didn't have to. i don't owe anything to anyone. i suffer not having a job for the past few years, and now i see it all. God doesn't exist, cause if he did he would have helped me. This school is criminal, they discriminate and make fun of people, even judge someone on their religion. now they took my money, and left me like this. my life was so hard, a living torture. and i might die off .
would like to ask you to pray for me. to sincere pray for me........not some lord have mercy, if anybody really cares...
thing don't get any better, and i will either shoot myself....im in so much pain i would kill.
God doesn't exist, for me, He never liked me, never helped me with what i asked.