I've been there too my friend, I was born and raised Catholic myself. Conversion is no easy process, I think anybody coming from any background can agree on that. But, like Ioannis said, the best thing you can do is continue to read the writings of the fathers. If there's one thing I'd like to add to that it is to also read up on church history (you'd be surprised how much of it points right at Orthodoxy!) and, of course, the Bible itself. Also, remember always to keep praying for guidance!
You'll make the right decision eventually. They always do!
