Perhaps if I see signs that you have opened your heart and mind to something other than your own prejudicial conclusions, I will feel more confident and comfortable revealing that part of my private life.
Don't be that way. You knew you were dropping a bombshell when you publicly posted that information, and now you're acting surprised when people are confused. Methinks you might be a little attention-seeking.
You know it is funny, but I've been around so long and told parts of my story here and there so many times that I don't really see it as a bombshell. So believe me when I say that was not my intent.
But you are right. I do owe some explanation.
The fact of the matter is that there was a time when I was a regular communicant in a Latin rite parish and my eastern parish and also regularly attended the Orthodox parish that I cannot help but say is my true parish home today. In 12 years my life changed dramatically. I became more and more the hermit. Moved away from a once close proximity to all three parishes. Became extraordinarily poor...and poorer even still this year. My house was so cold this year that I have damaged my lungs. So all pennies went to oil not gasoline...
I can no longer do what I once did for many reasons. Some of which I cannot tell because they are so hurtful and I am tired of fighting some fights. Some of the old fights are over and there's no need to say mean things. I will say that for a while, I had very little support from my eastern Catholic Church but that is only a part of that story because in other ways and with some of my pastors, I felt perfectly at home. When Metropolitan Judson was alive there was never a time that I could not pick up the phone and talk to him, as though he were my parish priest. It was a wonderful time for learning and feeling cared for in truth. So with all the ups and downs I still remain loyal to my canonical home.
I take care of an aging mother which hampers my mobility...So when I can get out to liturgies, I go to the place where I am most at home, and fed spiritually to suit my own spiritual needs and life. I follow the Orthodox new calendar which is in strong parallel with my eastern Catholic calendar and have fasted the Orthodox way for a dozen years to the best of my ability. Even though I cannot commune, I fast the eucharistic fast. Even when I cannot get out to liturgy, I fast the Eucharistic fast...that sort of thing. I do receive sacraments often enough though not nearly as often as I would wish. I keep a daily prayer discipline of the hours.
There is an eastern Catholic priest who has been my spiritual father for nearly 15 years now. So I am not without guidance. He oversees my praxis and my internal state as much as is possible.
I'm not sure what else to tell you...You can ask more if you like. I can tell you that I would never come here and interact as I do if I did not live the life that I have lived. I love Orthodoxy. That is a fact.