may God give you wisdom, patience, and above all, love.
the time i waited to join the orthodox church was truly very difficult, even though it was not very long!
but i think i learnt a lot about God's love and mercy in that time. i still have a lot to learn.
getting closer to God means leaving behind old habits like always being right, not listening well etc etc. and this kind of spiritual growth comes through struggle and self-control.