Here is my dilemma,
I hate to be blunt about this but is no other way.......my wife is a very cultural, modernized , cafeteria, Hispanic Roman Catholic and she wants to continue to belong to the RCC with absolutely no desire to even attend a ECC or OC and this way of living is killing me spiritually. She is very content where she is in the RCC, although she is (and I hate to say this) far from coming close to being an actual Catholic.........and it’s killing me. It was just a few years ago that she said she wanted to be Catholic and not Christian, and that Mary was equal to God...............
I have heard her say things to people like "don't do that we are going to church, or we just came from church" but then it's totally fine to do it the next day. We never pray together and I have been trying unsuccessfully for many years to get her to pray together and she won't because she wasn't taught that way or she isn't used to it. She says I am on a journey and she is not so I can continue my journey and she is going to stay where she is, but I tell her that being a Christian is a journey........
We recently attended an ECC and she did not want to receive communion because it was not the RCC
Not to mention the very unpleasant reaction I received when we attend DL at Greek OC.
I have tried every which way to communicate with her about my feelings about being a Christian, spirituality, churches, etc. I have expressed my concern multiple times in various manners about attending services of the OC and learning more about it and it seems to go in one ear and out the other. I have been patiently waiting for her to come around and at least maybe change some of her ways so that we can journey together (at least start the journey in the RCC) as I have long thought a husband and wife should, but I am at the point where I am ready to go it alone…..in fact I don’t think there is any turning back. I have learned too much about God and myself to continue my previous way of life in Christ………if you know what I mean?
I firmly believe she will stay with the RCC because of her Hispanic culture, but (sorry I am being honest) its spirituality has turned into rituality with no spirituality and I can no longer endure this as its tearing me apart spiritually. This is bad of me but I would rather stay at home on Sunday and read an Orthodox prayer book than attend the mass at several of our RCC’s because all I can think about at the RCC is the OC.
We have a two year old daughter and I could not imagine raising my daughter in this type of atmosphere that my wife has come to live so I figure, I must take the lead with my daughter and go it alone without my wife, (not in divorce of course). I could go on and on about other things but what I have written should suffice to provide a backdrop to my situation.
I find things in the OC that I do not find in the RCC and although I have not made a commitment yet and it may take some for that I still cannot sit by the way side and wait on my wife to make the first move anymore. If I am going to be a better Christian it’s on me and not my wife…………………but man its tough!
So where is my question? I know there are many mixed marriage couples or couples with a unbelieving spouse and I was curious if those couples might have any advice about this particular situation?
Thanks, in advance for letting me unload……….