Another youngster! I guess I can't say much, as I'm only in my twenties! It's great to see the younger American population coming to Orthodoxy...it shows a virbrant future for Christ's Church in North America! Welcome to OC.net!
I'm sorry to hear that your parents have forbidden you to attend another church. May I ask what denomination you currently belong to? I have many friends whose parents took it especially hard as their children were converting away from their parents' faith. The turmoil you are most likely experiencing is not uncommon. You'll be in my prayers.
Even though you cannot attend another church, there are many things you can do, as have been noted here. Reading is one of the most important. Reading Scripture, the Fathers, etc. is very important. There are also a number of more modern books out there written about Orthodoxy, like primers to our faith. The most well-known, I believe, is the set of books written by Metropolitan Kallistos Ware, a bishop of the Greek Orthodox Church in the UK. His book, The Orthodox Church
, is a great introduction to the history and theology of the Church (there's quite a bit of Russian history included!). The other is The Orthodox Way
, which explores Orthodox spirituality. Both are wonderfully edifying reads.
If you are more technically-minded and want to get into a "nuts and bolts" understanding, I would refer you to two books written by Vladimir Lossky, a lay theologian of the Orthodox Church, who lived and died in the 20th century. His book Orthodox Theology: An Introduction
is a good primer in theology, and his The Mystical Theology of the Eastern Church
is also good, though somewhat more in-depth. The books are quite similiar in scope, however, and cover the same material in a lot of places.
Another book that comes highly recommended is Archimandrite Meletios Webber's book Bread & Water, Wine & Oil: An Orthodox Christian Experience of God
is a wonderful primer on Orthodox sacramental theology. Fr. Meletios is also on Ancient Faith Radio, referenced above. You can find a series of lectures of his on Ancient Faith here
. He has also be interviewed a number of times on other shows.
Also, while you can't attend an Orthodox church yet, perhaps you could at least get to know some of the Orthodox Christians in the area. Developing a relationship with a priest is a wonderful start, as he is someone who can discern where you are spiritually and guide you, as well as instruct you about matters of Orthodox faith, and perhaps even help you to establish a prayer rule.
Again, welcome to OC.net!