Try them both and see where you feel more at home!
Good advice. You may also just find an affinity to the mode of singing and tones used in one tradition over the over as well. That is a matter of personal choice - not dogma or theology.
I am having this very same dilemma, and I've attended both the Rocor and Antiochian churches in my new city. As for singing and tones, I definitely feel far more drawn to the Rocor services. They are like none I've ever attended!My heart is on fire there. The Antiochian singing feels a bit forced or off kilter, and the somewhat eastern sounding melodies being sung by western converts come off as kind of unnatural to me. Being musical by nature, I find this distracting. That said, the Rocor church is very cultural, the services are primarily in Church Slavonic, and nobody has really tried to make me feel welcome. The people at the Antiochian church, on the other hand, are super friendly, and the priest is very kind and welcoming. Not sure where to be...
Stavros... are you an Orthodox? I didn't quite get that from your posts - I'd say you're on your way. If you're not yet Orthodox, go where you're welcome, because that's obviously important. After you're welcome, convicted, and dripping with (Holy Water and) Holy Chrism, your place will become clear.
I am in fact (technically) Orthodox, but it hasn't come naturally to me. The fact is, I was Baptised and Chrismated almost three years ago, following no real Catechumen instruction (except several years of self-instruction... pretty un-Orthodox, I know) and due to cirumstances, have lived in several different towns and cities since, often very far from a parish. Therefore I have yet to really settle into a routine with a community or receive personal spiritual guidance for any length of time. I found myself at home at one parish, which was an hours drive from my home, but after being hospitalized, my faith took a big hit, and I stopped attending altogether for about 6 months. Then I moved abroad, where I began to attend services again (all in a foreign language, though). I admit, I struggle with faith (or lack thereof) a lot.
We moved recently to my wife's hometown and our intention is to stay here permanently. We just had a baby and it's time to settle down. My wife is secular/agnostic, so that makes it difficult, too. My entire family is agnostic/atheist, as are most of my friends, and I have very few Orthodox (or even Christian) friends at all. Before being Baptised, I approached Orthodoxy for several years, but mostly through books and with very little human contact, so some of my views have been, let's say, unrealistic from the get-go. I hope that I can get settled into a community here and achieve some spiritual stability. I, frankly, have been sampling both parishes but kind of keeping my distance for now.
I honestly think a lot of this has do to with having adult ADD, which I was very recently diagnosed with. I have always had a terrible time with follow-through and consistency. This could explain why I haven't held a steady job or lived in the same place for more than a year or two at a time for the past 20 years or so. I seem to be 'always on the run', and it's very hard for me to stop, commit, and repeat. My mind is always hungry for something different. I have changed religious / philosophical orientation several times in my life, and have never remained still long enough to develop any true conviction. Orthodoxy has held my interest, albeit intermittently, for 10 years now, and I can't say that for many things.
I'm not sure what I need more of: prayers or ritalin.