SRD You have a problem, you decribe it in some detail. No one discounts it. You choose ask about it at an orthodox forum. You get sincere answers, which you largely reject.
Do you believe Good exists in the world? If you do then most assuredly evil does too and it is active.
Try and not to be so 'laconic' about it, there may be something negative happening to you and the best way to combat that is to seek help from Orthodoxy which has never forgotten that this world is in a state of spiritual warfare, ie good vs evil to simplify it. Evil will encourage you to dismiss all we say. Go to where the forces of Good are gathered and see an Orthodox priest and explain what you are experiencing. He will not reject you. But if you are just doing this to make fools of us, you might ask what has motivated you to mock and waste the time of people who wish you well....and that force will not be a force of good. think about it. By the way, the first weapon of evil is to try and convince humanity that it does not exist....In Biblical times Satan was called and still is ' The father of lies ' . Good luck and God Bless.