Dear folks, I am a drunk, I cannot stop when I start drinking. Almost all my posts to this forum where I showed anger were made when I had a lot to drink. It is killing my wife and me. I want to stop. I will try. Please pray. Thank you so much, all of you.
As someone who has often drank to deal with problems, I understand what you're going through. Ignore the suggestions to go to AA, etc., I'm willing to venture that the cause of the problem is not Alcoholism (and this is coming from an Ulster Scot with a genetic predisposition to Alcoholism
), but rather that Alcohol is self-medication...even if you stop drinking, you have not addressed the real problems.
I wish I could offer you a more specific solution to your situation, but I just don't known enough about what's going on. If you want to pm me, feel free to; if you don't, that's fine as well, I know I am one to deal with my own problems on my own and not bring other people into it, so I completely understand if you're the same way.
But, in short, don't focus on the Alcohol, focus on the issue that's bothering you, you don't need to share it with us, you know what's bothering you even more so when drunk than sober. The only advice I can, generically, offer you for dealing with it is don't worry about your presuppositions and don't worry about what other people think, other people are not that important, the only important person is yourself, that and your family is probably essential to your happiness...but no one else and nothing else matters.
Confront what bother's you, everything else will follow.