It's hard to believe I am saying this as I thought it was still a couple of years away, but I am set to be baptized, chrismated and communed on the upcoming feast of the Dormition of the Mother of God (Old Calendar) on next Saturday, August 28 (Gregorian).
For those who have been praying for my family situation I regret to say that I will be doing this alone, so it is bittersweet, but ultimately it has become apparent that this is the right thing to do.
So pray for me as I struggle to prepare with fasting and keeping my regular prayer rule. I am not a disciplined person, and so this will truly be difficult for me. Also, I have already felt an immediate demonic assault on me. There has been a flood of doubts and also a lot of sentimental feelings for my Protestant and Roman Catholic pasts that I am officially putting an end to, even though I know that both are being fulfilled. I'm sure many of these feelings are normal and not necessarily attacks, but I know something is happening because rather than joy, I am not just a bit nervous but suddenly terrified. All at the same time, I am so excited and in awe that I will finally taste His Body and Blood.