and, I left this part out, but I hope you all see the humor in this that I do. lately, I've been praying that the Lord show me how to have more humillity. well, I also seerved at the altar for most of camp. it was OK the first time, but the small job of putting incense into the censor soon proved to be a challenge! one time, I put the incense on the small part of the charcoal that was orange/red. for some reason, no smoke came out! so, Father pretty much swings it around everyone with NOTHING coming out, and I'm standing by the stage (we converted a 7th-Day Adventist worship space into a Church) basically saying "yes, I am the incense guy." but by-far the wierdest thing is, when vespers was over, I was sitting, listening to the in-depth disgussion on the book of Hebrews with a sad face and a mopy disposition, when Father comes in with a happy grin and a "Thank you, Trevor." I apologised for the "dud", but he said that it just must have gone out, no big deal. the next day, at vespers, I was quite bad aswell. apart from being sick (7th day adventists don't eat meat, so we all had WAY more soy that we were used to, and we all got sick) and tired from a life-changing hike, the service wasn't just regular vespers, it was GREAT vespers. I was so pooped out and only expected to hand Father the censor once or twice. instead, I handed him the censor, his philonion, lit a candle for the little entrance (which, by the way, I tried to lite twice, and it kept going out!) . so, for the little entrance, I go around with an un-lit candle, stand in the wrong place, and Father has to tell me what to do. after this, I apologuised, and Father wasn't angry! this was such a shock! he said "you were great". this man was so kind to me after my mistake, it warms my heart to think of those words. well, this bad performance made my stomach do backflips, so I said good night early. I talked to a cabin mate about my most embarassing mistake, and he was so comforting, telling me that I've only been Orthodox for like 3 months, and can't be expected to know everything. I must say, this also blew me away. the camp's understanding of my mistake...it was just so kind, like I've never gotted from another teenager. the Nurse even thanaked me for serving,and said that nobody realized I made any mistakes.
I must say, Orthodox Christians, young and old, are such kind people!