at the beggining I want to ask everyone to forgive me my english.. because I don't know it very well..
and one more thing, I think that not a lot of you know that the word "catholic" referring to the Catholic church originally meant Orthodox faith, just when the Catholic church separeted itself from Orthodox church took this word and made it its name.
When I was borned my parents didn't gave me baptism.. they wantet to give me a choice in my life, the reason was also that they weren't strongly believing..
So, when I grew up (about 15 years old)I took a baptism, I became Roman Catholic. I have chosen this faith because this was the faith of my country. I always believed in God and I wanted to come near to Him so I took baptism. I was going to church, taking part in a church life. But I always felt that something is missing.. I couldn't get satisfied with the faith.. I was seeking here and there, but no priest never could make me become nearer to God.. I felt in some way rejected from church.. I started to see what a lot of Christians see.. that church and faith is two different things.. catholics and not only they don't find in church safty, they don't learn about faith.. they go to church and see bad things happening there.. which on the end put them to search for something else.. anyway that's not completely what has happened to me. I stoped going to church because simply I didn't see sense anymore, but I praid and kept faith in God inside me, from a young child I was always telling God" my life is Yours so put me on a path you consider the best for me", and God always protected me. Until one day in a miricaulus way took me to Greece. When I was 19 I was working and giving lessons from my native language to the 16 year old American girl. She was very rich. Her father has bought holidays in Greece for him and his daughter but 2 days before the flight something came up and he called me if I could go with her instead of him. I myself was just changing the company in which i was working so i had exactly two weeks free before to start new job, i packed and went to Greece. 2 days before coming back to my country I met my husband. From the first moment we knew God has arranged all this for us to be together, my husband also miraculisly was in that place where we met.. so he asked me to stay with him 2 more weeks, but I already knew that I'll stay for ever.. after half a year we got married, now we are 3 years together and have 2 beautifull daughters ( 2 years old and year old), 2 years ago I became Orthodox, I took a new baptism, and I have chosen name Evagelia. I knew from the first moment that this is the right thing to do. I never hesitated. God has Showed me. I gave Him my life, trusted in Him and He showed me that the Orthodox faith is the only true one. I have experienced a lot in this faith. I saw lots of miracules, I've met monks and priests that are clearly enlightened by God's grace. My life changed, I opened my eyes in this faith.. and I understood some things. When I was Roman Catholic- I believed but I didn't know a thing- although I was going to church and I had lessons at school. i was living in a world. When I became Orthodox I saw that the life before was a lie, was full of hidden temptations, that there was a mechanism which makes people to believe they do well when they don't. Now I am happy, although when i know i struggle more, I fail more often.. but I never doubt if I chosen the right faith, I know orthodox faith is difficult to put into life but this isn't a reason to search for a "comfortable faith" which treets human weeknesess- sins as "not sins"- just to make things easier.. that is a clever thing to do.. So I found peace and happiness. And I am gratful to God that He showed me, because now I feel my life has a meaning, and I know that I have to faight my weaknesses . when i was catholic, i was impatient and i was always runing, trying to catch i didn;t even knew what, so i never had peace inside me. from the time I am orthodox I don't run anymore, and there is no more reaching for something in the darkness, there is light now.. Sometimes.. when I say my sins and receive Holy Comunion.. after i feel like living in heaven.. and when I sin I miss that feeling of being near to our Lord, that joyfull heaven on earth.. and this makes me to try harder to become a good person.. although it's hard..
In Orthodox faith I "smell" God in the air, I see the light that it is His, everyhere clearly I sens God, and yet in church, kissing the pictures, Icons of Saints all around in the light of candles.. that makes me feel that religion is true, and the saints looking at me from the walls, each of them with different story of their life motivate me, make me know that heaven is here on earth..
I don't know if I helped.. my advice is to pray to God to show which religion is a true one and God will show..