Its that time of year when I am definitely starting to feel the burn out of teaching and I think that there are definitely certain aspects of the job that are wearing on me. I consider myself a good teacher, who challenges students, manages my classroom well, and activates higher level thinking skills in my students but...
As some of you know, I have been teaching remedial and credit recovery classes this year and the incredible apathy of the students is getting difficult for me to deal with. During the day I run two on line credit recovery labs for Algebra IA and IB. The students are being given the opportunity to recover credit for two math classes in one semester and very few are taking advantage of the opportunity. I know a lot of it comes from the fact that these students don't want to be in school in the first place so constantly playing the cheer leader, trying to get them to finish these courses is wearing on me. I also know that part of it is a function of my student being Freshmen. And finally, part of it is a function of living in a state with a low socioeconomic status with generations of poverty and generations of undereducation.
My other four classes are called Math Lab. They are designed to help students who are substantially below grade level with regard to their math skills. All of the problems that come with my credit recovery courses are repeated here, with the added stress of trying to help them be successful in their algebra classes when many of them have math skills that are below that of many elementary school students. Further, these classes have students who are in gangs, gang affiliated, or students who's families simply don't care.
In the end, its apathy, apathy, apathy all around.
And I hear statements like the following:
1. I don't need this; I am going to be a famous rap star.
2. I don't need this; I am going to be a veterinarian.
3. I don't need this; I am going to be a doctor.
I kid you not. Of course we discuss these matters but a week later, its "I don't need this; I am going to be a doctor" again!
I know that this sounds ridiculous and I know I sound really negative but I am just plain worn out. I need prayers to sustain me through the rest of the school year.
Good News: Next year I get to teach two Pre-AP courses (enriched courses) for juniors!
PS: I love teaching and I and I am so greatful for my job, but I need some grace to do a good job throughout the rest of the year.
Please pray for me.