Ok, I don't know if I have spoken here of how I came to believe that the bread and wine is truly the Body and Blood of our Lord. This is all part of my journey towards Orthodoxy even if it is in a particular odd way lol.
I had been contemplating the issue of the communion of the bread and body and the wine and blood with the issue of the image of marriage Paul gives and then says he was talking about Christ and His Church. This may seem odd and even highly unorthodox, but I ask that you are patient because I see images and acts even revealing the truth and union, unity of the Lord and His bride.
As I looked at marriage, how it is the image of Christ and His Church and wondering how the two were one flesh, one body. I believed that the communion with the highest form of worship of our Lord though only symbolic and rememberance. Well as I contemplated on marriage I started to see connections, the coming together of the Husband and Wife as a form of communion. Well that did not play well with symbolic only or rememberance only lol. I began seeing elements of a type of worship/veneration, deep love, commitment, rejoicing, thanksgiving, rememberance and even the giving of life of the husband to the wife, the husband giving of his flesh and she offering hers up to him, the two becoming one not just in spirit but also bodily. The Husband and Wife already shared the same spirit, a oneness in spirit, a union in spirit, it was only during the maritial act the two became one in flesh also. It was for me like seeing the Eucharist in a totally diffrent light, the husband literally giving of himself to the wife, which he does with his DNA in the seed. The wife taking that life and forming new life, which grows and matures within her which is symbolic of all christians within her, that is within the Church. Also the marital act can also build the bonds deeper if done in the right spirit between husband and wife, a closeness that no one else can share (side note: it also makes adultry far more disgusting when seeing things in this light).
There is more, but lol I can't always keep all the connections I see straight or there are just to many, so it makes it hard for me to communicate.
I know, I am going to get blasted for what I had seen, but this was how I came to know that the bread and wine of the Eucharist is truly the body and blood of our Lord.
Not: I am not saying we have sex with our Lord. I do think the Lord had a purpose and a reason for sex in marriage, to teach us and to reveal to us a deeper meaning.
Anyways, has anyone else, Church Father, Saint, etc., ever seen the Eucharist in such a light.... or is it darkness