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Offline 88Devin12

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Struggling with regaining control & preparing for Lent...
« on: February 09, 2010, 01:56:49 AM »
For the past few months, I've been struggling to regain my footing. I've gradually been falling down the ladder after loosening my grip last Fall. I did this thinking I just needed to relax and let loose for a while. I've dropped farther than expected, though I feel like I've caught myself and stopped myself from falling any farther.

I'm struggling to begin the gradual climb again, and I'm hoping that Lent will help me in this ongoing struggle. With this being the second hardest semester of my 5 years here at college, it hasn't allowed me breathing room from my spiritual struggle and I've begun to already feel tired of the fight.

I know I will continue fighting, but I pray my progress will improve and that I will regain my control over myself.

I probably should have asked for prayers months ago, but I've chosen to be stupid, and I've hid this struggle from everyone save for my Priest. Though thankfully my Priest informed me a couple months ago that some of my fellow Parishioners noticed something different (not in a good way) with me, this woke me up and made me realize that my fall was effecting others as well as myself. It hasn't effected my beliefs in Orthodoxy, but certainly has effected my practice of the faith.

Please, pray for me, as I wage this battle and struggle to regain the ground I've lost...

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Re: Struggling with regaining control & preparing for Lent...
« Reply #1 on: February 09, 2010, 02:40:54 AM »
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Re: Struggling with regaining control & preparing for Lent...
« Reply #2 on: February 09, 2010, 02:44:59 AM »
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Re: Struggling with regaining control & preparing for Lent...
« Reply #3 on: February 09, 2010, 05:15:26 AM »
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« Reply #4 on: February 09, 2010, 05:24:07 AM »
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Re: Struggling with regaining control & preparing for Lent...
« Reply #5 on: February 09, 2010, 07:43:49 AM »
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Re: Struggling with regaining control & preparing for Lent...
« Reply #6 on: February 09, 2010, 09:06:15 AM »
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Re: Struggling with regaining control & preparing for Lent...
« Reply #7 on: February 09, 2010, 12:23:30 PM »

Lord, have mercy!

Don't worry...we are all on that ladder with you....behind you....hopefully pushing you up, and not knocking you off.

I once heard a sermon during Vespers on the Lenten Sunday commemorating St. John of the Ladder.  I found it very moving and though inspiring...and although I have forgotten the priest who spoke, I have not forgotten his message.

He explained that we all have to climb that ladder.  At the top is Christ, stretching his hand down to help us up.  All around are the demons (life's troubles, etc) trying to push us off, or down. 

However, we all are on this ladder at the same time.  Therefore, we have to help each other.  For if you truly want to reach Christ (at the top) you need to be able to have free access to the ladder.  If someone ahead of you is "stuck" then they are blocking your way, and everyone else's.  Therefore, it would benefit you to actually help that person along in their struggles, to ease their burden, to strengthen them, so they can continue their climb, thereby allowing everyone else to proceed behind them.

I loved that!  Just another reason to help your fellow man!

This thought reinforces the notion that we are all one family, and we need to help each other.

'whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'

Lord, help Devin with his burden.  Strengthen not only his faith, but, give him strength to understand and excel at his studies.

Lord, have mercy!

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Re: Struggling with regaining control & preparing for Lent...
« Reply #8 on: February 09, 2010, 01:12:41 PM »
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Re: Struggling with regaining control & preparing for Lent...
« Reply #9 on: February 12, 2010, 07:50:09 PM »
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Re: Struggling with regaining control & preparing for Lent...
« Reply #10 on: February 12, 2010, 08:16:25 PM »
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