Please pray for me because I have taken the Eucharist and have fallen into sin and have not been faithful to Jesus. I have fallen away from my prayer life and have judged others, I have been greedy over (spiritual) books and other material things, storing up treasures without even thinking of pleasing Christ.
Praying and caring only for myself.
I have not wanted God's will.
I have not been thankful to God for His great blessings and mercies.
I have not loved God or my neighbor as a should.
I have not relied on God for living my life, for help in all my doings.
I have wasted all the time god has given me in vain pursuits.
And now I have completly lost the Holy Spirit, it does not want to visit, because i am proud and i have lost the feeling of my sinfulness and nothingness.
Please pray that I may not be found barren of oil at the judgment seat of Christ, and the end of my life.
my name is Mikhail Kolitwenzew.