I have been really having a hard time with this. last night, I got out my two bibles that I used daily in my Protestant life. when I fell in love with Holy Orthodoxy, I put them away and replaced them on my night stand with an Orthodox study bible. this sounds silly I'm sure. but when I leaf through the pages, I feel the way I felt when I was Presbyterian. I mean, Sola Scriptura was great, before I discovered that there were traditions established by original Christians, and that Orthodoxy follows those traditions to this day.
How can I get through these little tough times?
Tomorrow when I go to liturgy, these feelings will fade. But, how should I address them when I have them?.....I feel confused, to say the least.
anyone else feel my pain?
No, and simply because when I first started to read the fathers, I immediately became odd, and so, I never really fit in anywhere except for Anglo-Catholicism back in the liberal denomination of the ECUSA, and even back then, I never wanted to plant roots in the ECUSA.
I was raised Baptist, but I have no feelings that you are speaking of......at least not now and the 3 years I've been EO.,
maybe because I am still friends with most of the protestants I knew in the past. I still speak and argue with many often, and so, no.
oh, and I don't hate nor dislaik my protestant past. So that may have something to do with it as well. I take my slow good old time when it comes to absorbing the Orthodox ethos....I never tried to force it on my self and so I never stopped saying protestant prayers around protestants......etc.
It sounds like you may be having one of these moments:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SqVEEcqrGcA
(Home Videos Channels Shows)
Change Player SizeThe Matrix : Cypher´s speechhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z7BuQFUhsRM
(Agent Smith and Cypher)
I guess one of the things you can do is look at your past as having alot of goods things in it that helped you eventually become Orthodox. We don't have to despize our past nor dispze the groups we came from. I'm sure we can't find alot of good where we came from.