A little long but worth reading………………
Hello everyone, lately I have been contemplating my so called hopeful journey from the RCC to Orthodoxy and this is where I stand at this point in my life. Maybe someone will have a little insight into this matter. I am a convert Catholic and my wife is a cradle Catholic. In the last two years I have been studying church history and over the last 7 months I have been learning about the Orthodox Church.
Even though I converted to Catholicism a several years ago I still had issues with the church and the way I approached these issues with my wife was not the best way for dialogue. Needless to say, I have assisted my wife in constructing some walls between us that concern religion. Right now we are working on this problem and it’s slowly getting better.
Through my studies this last summer I was ready to accept most of the teachings of the RCC and move on, although I still disagree with a few matters of theology. Then because of these studies I learned of the Orthodox Church but I never gave it much attention because of the lack of close churches (closest is 2.5 hrs away). Then I found Ancient Faith Radio and started to learn about Orthodoxy and I actually forced myself to quite listening because of the lack of nearby churches. Well that did not last very long and I found myself diving straight into it.
So for the last 7 months I have been learning as much as I can, I am in touch with the closest Orthodox priest, I have corresponded with some folks on this website, but mainly I read, print and write down topics I wish to learn about. I have purchased the small red prayer book, I do my best to follow the Orthodox fasting calendar, and I am starting to set up an Icon corner. I have also asked my wife to think about attending a Vespers service…………….she said she very reluctantly would. Hopefully she doesn’t change her mind. If she does I guess I will go solo…………….
My wife and I have been together for 13 years and I attended church with her all those years and I shamelessly say I never thought to learn about the RCC. (I wonder if it was supposed to be this way.) Anyway, after 13 years I question myself as to why I do not have the passion for the RCC as I have come to have with the Orthodox Church once I started learning about church history almost two years ago. I know of this zeal that converts have to Orthodoxy, but why don’t I have it for the RCC? Even when I was ready to accept the RCC I didn’t have the strong desire to keep attending it. At one point I was running away from the RCC, but not anymore. I see its downfalls and wonder which church is the real Church, well I think I know in my heart which church is the Real Church.
These are my current opinions on the RCC and they are way different than my cradle Catholic wife. She is Hispanic and the RCC has been a part of her entire life. There are ties to the RCC that run deep. She doesn’t know about the Theology of it. Heck two years ago she didn’t even know that a Catholic was Christian. I love my wife dearly, I am just showing that she likes her church and doesn’t really care for the theology. I do not mean to be judgmental by this upcoming statement but one among many reasons I am turned off by RCC is the fact I see so many Catholics attending mass on Sunday and then turning their backs to it the rest of the week. It bothers me to see Christians acting this way and I know this happens in every church, it just seems to be more common in the RCC. My wife’s family is kind of in this boat. This is just a basic reason, I haven’t written about any of the theological reasons.
I have been open with my wife about my interest in the Orthodox Church. I have talked with her about theology and stuff and it doesn’t really go anywhere. God willing I will be going to a Vespers service soon, and I do not know what will happen beyond that. At this point my wife will not leave the RCC and I really do not think I could bring turmoil to the house by leaving the RCC for the Orthodox Church. I will have to answer to God for my actions and I do not know if leaving for another church is good for the family. In my current state of knowledge between the two churches I have concerns for my daughter as she grows up and we start to discuss matters of church history, basic theology, but that is a while down the road as she is only 14 months.
So, I would love to be near an Orthodox church and become more affiliated with it. I even think I would thoroughly enjoy becoming Orthodox. Will it happen? Not right now. I will continue to study about the Orthodox Church, its history, church history, the differences between the two churches and I will continue to come to OCnet. Due to the behavior of CAF I have ceased going over there. I intend to continue showing my wife my interest in the Orthodox Church. I have found more about the spirtual life of a Christian within the Orthodox Church than I ever have with the RCC. At this current stage in my life I have come to the conclusion that I must be the best Christian I can be within the RCC and God willing attending an Orthodox service when feasible and truly seek the Will of God rather than my own. I have climbed the mountain of Zeal and plained out, now I think there is a long journey ahead of me that I am unsure of its direction or end. I have to have Faith that if is it the Will of God that we will come to the Orthodox Church somehow together. I cannot imagine that God would want his marriages being divided in Church (even though I know it is common).
So thanks for listening to me, I have recieved great advice here! I hope I didn't ramble on to much I had to get this off my chest and hopefully another convert will be blessed by my experience. God bless everyone here!