Glory to God!
I pray that the fire of love will never grow cold. As you bathe in the joy of your Chrismation, prepare yourself for trials and hardships. I myself, as a convert to Orthodoxy, have experienced tremendous hardships and spiritual attacks since I was baptized. I recognize it for what it is, a satanic attempt to discourage me and keep me impotent in the spiritual warfare to which all Christian are called to fight. So remember your new name, your Chrismation, and the mystical feelings of joy that you have right now. Feelings come and go, circumstances change, and our lives tend to ebb and flow in righteousness and success over sin and sorrow. But Our Lord and His Church shall never be defeated, and thus in nearness to Him and faithful participation in the Church we shall eternally prevail.
I just finished a wonderful book by Michael Gallatin called Thirsting for God in a Land of Shallow Wells. In it he writes:
"Let me be very candid. A Protestant who chooses to join himself to the ancient Church and its sacramental way will ind himself encountering spiritual conflicts and struggles of a magnitude he's never faced before. To walk the sacramental path is to live every day in a Kingdom that is "not of this world" (John 18:36). From experience, I can tell you that a serious Orthodox Christian finds himself at odds with this sinful world, and with the sinful blackness of his own heart, to a depth and intensity unknown to most Protestant believers. Tears are his fearful companion. But through his sacramental life of struggle, he also comes to know unimaginable grace, overwhelming peace, inexpressible joy, indescribable love- and true victory." [p. 92]
Peace to you my friend!
Gebre Menfes Kidus