I was baptized as a baby into the Antiochian Orthodox Church (New York). My dad's side of my family is of this church. Somewhere in my early life my dad had a falling out with the church and my family never went to any services nor did my parents ever direct any spiritual exploration. It was "up to us". Over my teen years I developed an anti-Christian mindset as well as explored paganism. It was during the latter part of 2007 did I start feeling a real spiritual emptiness. But at that time I declared myself atheist and refused to look at religion to fill that void.
One night this past summer, I awoke with a feeling of euphoria that stuck with me for weeks. I cannot remember the dream, if there was one, and the euphoria would come in waves when I thought about God. Soon I started praying and worshiping God and reading the Bible, but I have little direction. My wife isn't a fan of organized religion (though she is spiritual), so church attendence would be solo, something that I dint want. I want to return to the faith I was baptized in, but I have years of mistakes and wrong paths to make up for, as well as respecting my wife's views. To top it off, I live in an area of very little Orthodox population.
My screen name, LostInTheWorld, was not chosen lightly.