I attended my first service recently. I've been a Christian for most of my adult life, have a grad degree in theology, and have studied orthodoxy for over a year prior to attending. It was an Antiochian church. All that I had read and listened to has now come into much better focus. It was very powerful, but gentle and sincere at the same time. I felt ignorant, which I am, and that was my main anxiety. The woman next to me knew I was green as a shamrock but she greeted me and radiated peace. She held another member's fussing baby and put him to sleep in her arms. It was precious.