Baptized an RC, I was never really interested in religion as a kid, at least until my mid late teens. I attended a very liberal Catholic grad school which taught me absolutely nothing about what the RCC believed in. When I was 16, I begant o become interested in Christianity and eventually became "born again" and was baptized by immersion into a Baptist church. This period of my life lasted about 4 months. I then decided that the baptist were too unrealistic for me so I went over to the Episcopal church for about 6 months. I was actually confirmed an Episcopalian since my parents had pulled me out of Catholic school at the end of my seventh grade year, before I was to make my confirmation. I then went back to Catholicism for a while and made my confirmation in the RCC. During this time, I became interested in the Eastern rite Catholics and started occasionally attending a Byzantine parish. I had hoped to get a "tran sfer of rite" but the process was so complicated that I just started looking into Orthodoxy because the OC was easier to join.
I then decided to become Orthodox and studied under a very kind and holy ROCOR priest who brought me into the OC through re baptism. I then was an Orthodox Christian for two years but, for various sad and sundry reasons, left and returned to the RC confession. I then became very interested (almost obsessed with) traditional (Latin mass, anti Vatican II) Catholicism. I wanted to attend a Latin mass and heavily indoctrinated myself into the trad RC perspective. I couldn't go to a "TLM" because 1. I don't drive due to bad vision in my left eye. 2. The TLM was too far a way from me. After about 7 years of wanting too real bad, I finally left the modern RC and started going to a Latin mass. However things started to go really crazy after that point. The priest ended up being a total fanatic. Hepreached all kinds of extreme, crazy stuff like " don't look an unmarried woman in the eyes", "don't sleep in a comfortable bed", "mortify yourself", "live like a frugel person". His messages sounded so drab and depressing. The people in the parish also seemed a bit on the coltish side too. They were all thin and pale looking and, when I addressed them about the problems I had with the priest extremism, they had the nerve to act like I was a "bad Catholic" for not going along unquestioningly with everything he said.
I left this church after that and really felt lost. I went through a terrible period of mental problems all caused by my experiences at this church. I then realized that the Catholic Church, whiter pure or post Vatican II was not for me. I wanted to return to healing balm of authentic Christianity, free of the fundamentalism and delusions of the western confessions. Since I had already belonged to this Church before, I decided to seriously consider re embracing Orthodox Christianity as the one, true, Church of Jesus Christ.
I have a great love for the Christian religion. The Orthodox Church speaks to me as Christianity in its oldest and purest form. In my journey across the wide world of Christian confessions, I experienced much, some good and a lot bad. I love the Church but my approach tends to be more based on things like theology, liturgy, and history more then on the preachy moralism that seems to attract some. I'm not against morality in Church but, after what I've been through, I'd rather have something with a more positive outlook. This is a great thing about Orthodoxy, they don't proselytize like
RC's and prots do. They have always preached a more positive message of hope and faith and love and not darkness and strictness and rules. I've always had a great aversion to rules in my life. I've always been the more creative type who has little patience for constraints imposed on me from without. This probably has a lot to do with my Mediterranean backround which has influenced my life greatly.
I hope that my journey to true Christianity may soon be complete.