That I can do what I know I should, when I don't due to ?(laziness? time? or just plain old excuses?). That my children would come to know whats right and not. (My oldest has a GF, started living together-she's not divorced yet, they both have children, my grandson is just 5, and my son had started going to the baptist church, and now is going to the Mormon church with his GF, and taking my grandson, my daughter just divorced, neither one is taking my other 2 grandchildren to any church, never has, and my youngest who is 21 tells me he thinks he's Buddhist. They were all baptized Lutheran, and then we switched to non-denom, all all 3 were very active in the churches we attended by their own choice). That I can find 2nd part time job that lets me deal with my Mom, and grandkids, AND let me attend church. Getting to services has been a problem for me already, dang it, its easier to attend RC masses on the weekend than DL because of the time issues. Some times it's not an option. Do I go to mass when I know I won't be going to DL? Would God rather have me go to mass than not even go at all? ( No, I do not go to communion at the RC mass, and can't at DL at this point in time either- and that's getting to me!!!). Most of my free time is before 8 am or late in the evening after work- I work 12 hour shifts, either 7a-7p, or 8a-8p. Days off usually have my grandson from 730 a till 7 or 8 at night. Then I think I'm being to self-centered when there is so many people who go through so much more than I do, and am thankful, for my problems seem so minor then. In the Name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, show me what to do,.