There was an experience I'd like to share with my brothers and sisters on this forum. Some will relate, some will jump on me for even bringing it up. So be it. But I thought it would be something which would be a good topic to share...
It begins like this:
During a hard time in my life, when I was doing many things I should not have, I went to a big musical festival of about 4000 people in the L.A. forest. I had ingested much psycadelics prior to going. This was to be the last time I would do this. Before I ingested them, I said a prayer, as if afraid with some for-knowledge, that I would have a frightening experience that night. The prayer I said was something like this..."Oh, Lord, if this is medicine, let it be medicine for my soul, to have the best possible outcome. I ask for understanding and wisdom that I might change and become a better person. I seek enlightenment of my mind and heart to be set on a path to you God." Then I took it.
As the night progressed, I noticed no affects, no "high". The bands, groups of musicians and dj's played. At some time about sunrise, I noticed faces in the crowd as if spotlights where on them. I recognized these people as people I knew through life, people whom I had lied to, misrepresented myself to or otherwise had hidden myself from through my "little white lies" to make myself look better in their eyes.
I then recognized them looking at me with a certain look. It seemed to me that they could see me for who I truly was, a liar, a fake. This made me feel very self conscious at first.
At this time a helicopter was making an airlift of a person who had fallen from a cliff at the edge of the venue. This was very sad to me. But this did not stop the party or even make people stop dancing. A few mentioned it with sadness and remorse but (things like this happen at parties and raves all the time).