Since I moved back home about a year ago, I've noticed a change in the relationship between me and my parents. I've never had a great loving relationship with either parent, but now I feel that it is very difficult to communicate with either. We're in different worlds.
I go to church on Saturday and Sunday and at other times during week, where I feel that I'm part of a Church family, and then I return home, often to situations that are not great and make me wish I could escape it. I'm wondering if these feelings are a result of the hardening of my heart, or if this is something else. When I speak with my friends, at church and old college friends, I feel all right, but when around my parents, especially when they are together, I feel a tension. I don't know what it is: if it's me becoming Orthodox (my mother is Protestant, my father Catholic) and the changes I have undergone as a result, or if it's perhaps something negative. I've been having depression problems as the result of a spine problem these past several years, which I've noticed makes me more defensive against adverse situations and conversations.
I'm 26 and feel I should be on my own, and am doing my best to be so again. So, I can understand me wanting to move out, but I'm wondering if these specific neutral, emotionless feelings towards my parents are good.
Your thoughts are welcome.