Since the end of February, L and I had been talking almost daily. For some time now, I had really thought that there might actually be a chance for us to get back together; I had even entertained the thought of moving away and marrying her. Even though I joked about all the typical guy stuff like 'ball and chain' and 'suffocation', the truth is, I really wanted it to work out between us.
Tonight, after conversing at length with my priest, I realized that no matter how much I love L, we're just two different people who want different things. It kills me to think about my life without her; and I feel doubly stupid for attempting to change my mind and now needing to ask for prayers again. L is a wonderful, intelligent young woman who really deserves the best in life. Unfortunately that person is just not me and it breaks my heart.
I am so thankful that God allowed me to see the truth in this whole situation, but now I ask that you please pray for the both of us to give us strength and courage to go on with our lives. Please pray that this pain will bring both of us closer to Him, and that if possible, it is short lived. Thank you, brothers and sisters.