I was raised a pentecostal from a very young age, and was eventually baptised as one. I don't believe I ever liked church very much, except for some sort of need to be there instilled in me, and by a very fire and brimstone-style fear of hell. I went to the same pentecostal church most of my life, and regularly, until my family started going less and less. I was very happy for this because by that time I felt completely ostracised by everyone my age in the church. I was very uncomfortable going there towards the end, no one really seemed to notice or speak to me and I was quite shy. Leaving was a relief. I did not return to any church for several years, during which time my alcoholism began to develop during my latter teenage years and I eventually ended up in Alcoholics Anonymous. Having to choose a spiritual way of life or an alcoholic death, I slowly came to return my faith in God.
I found myself attending a Roman Catholic church here, and I spoke to the priest who is a very wonderful man. While I would have liked to stay and become a confirmed Catholic, I have various disagreements with the doctrine (such as the infallibility of the pope) which make me hesitant. I haven't been back for awhile now, as I've been researching and considering this. During that time I found these boards and they have been a great help to beginning my understanding of the Orthodox Church. I find myself very eager and willing to find out more about this. Unfortunately, I currently have no car and have to depend upon others for rides, and my parents are protestant and would likely not accompany me. I
I am going to make my best attempt at going sometime, and if anyone has any advice for me to keep in mind (or anything on the customs involving entering the church and) it would be greatly appreciated, along with your prayers for my transportation problem.
EDIT: I am not too clear on this but, as with catholicism, I must be a confirmed member before I am permitted to take communion, yes? If so, what is the proper manner to refuse?