Please pray for me as I again face what nearly destroyed me via my father, then 9 years into our marriage and after 6 years again last night. I know it is an addiction, but its more than I can bear while sick myself, contending with sick children, a possible closing of dh's company and relocation of the company to Ireland (we are in the states and will not relocate) , financial troubles of said company which caters to the auto industry (nuff said) and a special needs child with a condition so rare I have to explain it to the doctors! Forgiveness is mandated I suppose, but restoration is a separate matter and I am so bloody DONE! Dh knew what I endured due to my father's same addiction to this 'stimulus', and we only barely survived when he admitted his own same addiction.
I can bear no more. My priest lives in another state and is elderly, so no help there. I need prayer that I don't do something wrong in my anger and hurt.