Brothers, Sisters and friends,
I feel incredibly selfish for even bringing this up, but I really need your thoughts and prayers with this. For several months now, almost a year really, I've had serious doubts about my relationship with my girlfriend. Several years ago, I prayed and prayed to the Theotokos asking her for a companion; not merely any girl of course, but one that She felt I needed. I know that She sent my girlfriend to me to pull me out of a bad situation I was in (alcohol, drugs, etc...) We've been through a lot together and I really love her. But there's something that makes me hesitant to continue the relationship. I've had friends who've told me that they like her and all, but that they also feel the same way. Plus, she doesn't like my town (I don't blame her- it's kinda small and xenophobic and she's from Europe). I can't express how bad it really hurts to think that we might actually break up, but I can't shake these feelings. There are some negative aspects about her (I guess there's some with all of us), but I'm full of doubts about the whole thing and just really depressed. I've been praying about it but either I'm too thick-headed to hear God, or He's withholding for a reason. Please pray for me that I will understand the Lord's will for me (us?) and that I won't loose my sanity over this.