You are capable to deal with the matters at hand!
"Fear not"! says the Lord
Go forward with the faith in the Lord. Trust in success in His word and NOT your abilities.
Our Lord has established his elect (The Holy Church) to proceed and not concede.
If you are punished for trusting God with a low grade or even put out of school than that is a blessing for you and for many who may be blessed by your undying trust and faith even when it seemed clear and better to stop and run in fear which means that you are trusting in your own abilities and not Gods power to help you.
Remember...there are many who will not see heaven albiet they lived on earth with great GPAs', good jobs, good careers, good reputations, good money, good benefits, good food, good cloths...good everything etc. This includes people who saved lives as surgeons or freed people as lawyers. Many of us who are in this kind of life are already in rebellion against God since God commanded us to be "humble and giving sharing what we have, never wanting" and to " accept our circumstances".
Who can truely adhere to the beauty of these holy words and way of life? I have no idea.
I do not know anyone who can come close... sad to say; not even myself.
"God is watching"!...St Basil, St. Isaac and many others...
So we must still push ourselves to get beyond 'who we are' and be who God wants us to be. It hurts allot to 'try' to do this ....allot!
Maybe God does not want you or me to have a good GPA right now?
God may want you to simply go forward to show you (or someone) something a whole lot greater than a good GPA. Something that may save your soul or the souls of many who you may never meet.
Something that may heal you from all your sorrows and fears.
This is encouragement enough for us all....indeed!
However; if you still need more than I will add that you are very young. Lifes challenges are better faced head on. Stopping and running is not the acts of the strong but the character of the weak and the unsure. Thus a good GPA will not get such types anywhere.
I was faced with a serious family problem at 19 years old when my dad (who I love dearly) faced having to loose his business and almost everything else.
When I found out about it I immediately stepped in and volunteered all my college savings, my time and whatever else to fight lawyers, creditors etc. I did not drop out of school or drop classes.
I did the best I could 'with my circumstances' as pre-engineering major. Of course my grades suffered.
After a semester of probation I was kicked out of school.
When the letter came I read it not knowing my sister was near by. She knew what it was I was reading maybe by the look on my face or she just "knew'.
After I finished reading the letter she callapsed in tears.
You see; she and I were very very close as children and she (as most people who knew me) knew that I wanted to be an Architect all my life. I was very good in math and science and was a very good artist. This event seemed to shatter any hope of me (a black man in America) making a career in architecture without a formal 5 year degree.
In America a black man can barely scrape by with a masters from Columbia just to get 'in the door' of the smallest NYC firms so without any degree...forget it!
Yes this is true in 2008!
So I was devastated. I could barely swallow all that day due to the painful ;lump in my throat from the shock of (albeit the enevitable life changing news) so was my dad who felt I should have just moved on with my own life and let him sink. I said to him "I am happy that I was able to give you something I would never part with!.....you have always looked out for me"....." I am young enough if God gives me the chance to pick things up later". "For now tbis is what life put in front of me." "It is nobodies fault."
Well; time moved on and my dads business held on for a few years after all the drama but closed and I had to finally find a job; which I did.
I worked very hard and looked forward to starting back on my degree. But the Lord seemed to keep me from going back to school fully although I was taking a class here and there when I could.
As God would have it today I am a successful Architect in NYC. I have won two awards and have been written up twice for my profesional accomplishments; most significantly in a St. Louis newspaper for a Landmark project I designed and over saw there.
This was all by the age of 39. ......Not bad!
Oh! .... I still do not have my degree.
Quite extraordinary indeed for a black man in America. And with my tenure in the industry I am now bonifide and can sit for my state license now if I want.
All is well that ends well. But it was a real; rollercoaster ride. But this is how the Lord had it set for me I beleive. I never stopped at any point . "Give God all the glory" ....Amen. For my part I just moved forward. The Lord took care of the rest for me. "All Praises be to God in Heaven and on earth; peace and His good will toward man".
It does not mean that this will happen this way for everyone. God knows.
But I stated this to show my life experience so that you may be encouraged in your own situation.
I really hope you are willing to stay the course, face the storm.
Keep going forward! but hold Gods hand!
God Loves you no matter happens...Amen.
I love you to young man!
Pray for Gods will upon you.
May the Lord heal you, grow you and strengthen you so that you may prosper over lenght of days in this life in health of spirit, mind and body so that you will see old age and fulfilling all your dreams while at all times serving the Lord without fear until the end so that He may say to you at the end with open arms "O good and faithful servant" ....."enter into peace"
May this be a blessing for us all...Amen.
" O my brethren love not the world neither the things that are in the world; for the world is passing away as well as the lust for it; for all is passing" ......St. Paul the Apostle of Christ
May God bless you on your journey.