Please do not judge me for my terrible doubts. How is one to understand and cope with such things? How could these things have gotten so far out of hand-the corruption-the abuse of power etc.?
Firstly, rest assured that I don't judge you."The Sayings of the Desert Fathers"
is a collection of sayings of the monastic Fathers of the 4th century. Read "The Sayings of The Desert Fathers"
and you will see where one of the Fathers advises the monks: "Do not admit boys into your company. I know of four Churches in Scetis which have been deserted because of young boys".
We know what this Father is talking about now, don't we?
The trouble with modern Orthodoxy often is that the advice of Scriture is not heeded: "Listen to your father and he will tell you"
. There are centuries of experience in the Church of dealing with the fallen human condition, and from this the Church has established her customs, traditions, canons etc. For instance, the monasteries of Mount Athos will not allow women to visit the penninsula, and no male without a beard or under the age of 18 can stay overnight. Can you see the wisdom in such rules?
In the Diaspora, Orthodoxy is still relatively new and is finding it's feet. It has the problem of having to accomodate new cultures (and therefore new practices). We must be patient.