Lord, have mercy...
I am in the same boat, sort of, except that I was not even taught any religion when I was little (grew up in the former USSR). I became a Christian as an adult, was baptized when I was already past 40, and then chrismated Orthodox (one year ago). But I am surreounded by many wonderful people who have no religious faith whatsoever, and they all are so better than I am, and they do so well in life, and they all argue with me about all this "religious nonsense," as they call it, and they always, inevitably, win all the arguments.
Right now, I do believe in God, in a supreme being, so to say, and I want to be saved, to live eternally in a changed, transformed world. But I feel like I have millions of doubts about any religious doctrine. That's why I stopped praying a couple of weeks ago; just cannot do it - it eats me up that I am just performing a hypocritical ritual.
Any spiritual help would be greatly appreciated... or maybe time will do the healing, I don't know.