Sure, I'll pray.
Things today seemed different than before. When I woke up, I was surprised by a few things. I was tired and exhausted, but I was not groggy as usual. Also, every time I wake up my ankle hurts and I have trouble walking (due to my back problem). Today, when I woke up, my legs seemed more stable than usual and I didn't have as much difficulty standing up. My back still hurt and hurts, but it wasn't as bad in the morning.
Throughout the day, my back still gave me problems, but I was able to focus on my job more than on most days. Usually, by the end of the day, I just want to collapse and die from pain; but today I didn't feel this way.
Many things around me seem brighter than before. I don't feel AS depressed as I usually do; although I still feel not so sure about my future.
Last night I went to a Russian Orthodox Church for Christmas. Boy, was that every painful. I was trapped by people all around me, and my back hurt so much that I couldn't focus on the chants or really join in the liturgy entirely. I just prayed the Jesus Prayer the entire time. In any case, maybe it's best that I went and partially the reason for why I felt significantly better in a long time.