Sin is ever my companion. One step forward, two steps back. I loose heart... pray for me. please.
the further you embark upon this path, the more you will feel this. The closer you get to God the more you will sense your own sinfulness. What did Isaiah say? (I am a man of unclean lips and I dwell among a people of unclean lips). What did Peter say to Jesus? (Depart from me for I am a sinful man).
Also the evil one will accuse you to yourself all the more - but you have an Advocate - Jesus Christ the Righteous!
Persever in prayer and cast yourself on the mercy of God; implore the Mother of God to pray for you.
blessings to you
May God have mercy