We've not yet reached a point where we are ready to tell people that we're investigating Orthodoxy. We want to wait until after we've spoken to the priest of the local Greek Orthodox parish and we know better where we stand.
But we're attending (in the interim) the Divine Liturgy at th GO parish and not at any Catholic parish. I'm also finding myself adopting a more "Eastern" attitude toward some issues and developing a sympathy for the Orthodox view on many issues. When these issues are discussed (yes, believe it or not religious discussion is a key component in some of these friendships) it is hard to hide completely or even tone down my obvious leaning toward Orthodox thought and belief. It's becoming stressful to keep trying to "hide" this. I rather feel as though I'm living a double life. It has been like this for nearly 2.5 years. But before now my friends assumed it was because I was gravitating toward Eastern Catholicism (a move that some still found cause for "concern"). Now that they know that I've moved to an area where I do not have easy access to an Eastern Catholic Divine Liturgy any mention of attending a DL makes them take note.
I'm not usually one to shy away from confrontation - but these are people I like and care about. I know that my decision is going to cause them distress and will, in some cases hurt them or lead them to feel betrayed.
If you would, prayers for discernment on when and how to tell people ... and for patience so that I don't blurt something out at an inopportune moment ... would be greatly appreciated.